Coco Darling

Those of you who having followed the blog, my facebook or instagram know that we are expecting our first baby this june. But we thought we would introduce her early. Her, that’s right, we are having a girl.
Meet our Coco Darling.
We did not intend to share the sex of our baby just yet, and definitely not the name. But things have changed and we want to share her with you before her ‘arrival’. But let me go back to explain why.

Four weeks ago, at our 20week anatomy scan a few warning bells were raised. She was in the 2nd percentile for size, and the 10th for length, Coco is a very little baby. As they looked closer, they found out more.We were sent to the Fetal medicine ward at Auckland Hospital where they did a more in-depth scan, and we heard the first on Trisomy 18. They performed an amniocentesis, and we waited for the results. They came back 100%, Coco had Trisomy 18. We were heart broken to say the least.

 Trisomy 18 is a rare genetic disorder that is quoted as being ” incompatible with life ” One in 6,000 babes have Trisomy 18, Not many make it full term, and even then, most are still born. Most only live hours or days, only around 8% make it to their first birthday.
I have spent the last few weeks debating with myself to share or not to share. To be honest, I did not really want to share this. I didn’t want to talk about it. It hurt too much. But the other day something switched. Despite the statistics and pain, we love our Coco Darling more than I ever thought I could love someone. She is our daughter, we are so thankful she is in our lives. She is a fighter. And we want to pour as much love on her for as long as we have her. We pray for a miracle, but we are thankful for who she is regardless. We thank God for Coco daily. We are thankful for our dear friends, for the meals, for the prayers and texts and flowers. The hardest part isn’t over, we still need your help and your prayers. I may not want to talk about it, and somedays I might. I will have good days and Bad. But we will always want you to think, to love and to pray for our Coco Darling. 

Thanks.

Gem, Nathan and Coco Darling.

FIRST home

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I’m so excited to finally be able to share this news with you!With a few changes happening in our life we thought why not another one?

Why not buy a house? Why not buy a house in Hawkes Bay?!So that is what we did. And we couldn’t be more pumped.

In but a month or so we will do the big shift. And although we are so sad to leave Auckland, It has been my home for 10 years, to leave our brilliant friends and church, we are so excited about the future and what it holds. We don’t know how long we will stay for, we will take it a day at a time. But for now, it will be home. We have family and such great friends down there that we can’t wait to spend more time with. As well as brilliant weather and produce abundance, there is also the fact of being able to own a three bedroom house with a garage and backyard for less than our tiny city rental.

So get ready to see even more home DIY, watch our house transform, Loads of adventures and new finds.

And of course a few visits back to ‘ The Big Smoke ‘Until next time.

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RAGS // 20weeks

 Dress I made // Kimono I made // Necklace was a gift // Ring from Bahagia Store // REDD by MAC on my lips.

I cannot quite believe we are at 20 weeks.

Somedays I feel like I just found out I was pregnant, and others feel like I have been pregnant F.O.R.E.V.E.R ( Usually the days that I could go for a drink )

I sometimes catch myself in the mirror and have to take a second look. Yes, Yes that is me with the giant belly. I am also learning to embrace dresses. I hardly ever wore dresses before the bump. I was an oversized tee and jeans girl, But now that makes me look like a mammoth.

Either way, we are 20weeks, and it is amazing.

PLUUUUUUS WE FIND OUT IF IT’S A BOY OR GIRL SOON!!!!!!!
What do you think?

Until next time.

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